There's  something about....

Writing a poem on paper that does something for me that typing can't. It's intoxicating and it frees me in a way. It happens here too on xanga when i open the new post screen and just type not knowing where my thoughts will lead. Its invigorating. Life giving. However, I'm here at such a time because I'm anxious and antsy so much so that i just wrote a new poem.

Warning: There's no real theme or subject.

But I Don't Want To...

Its like the music isn't loud enough,
And I'm not proud enough,
And my mind wont slow down enough,
For me to go to sleep.
All my efforts thwarted,
Resistance is futile.
Lie in bed and think.
But I don't want to.
Blow it out your ass.
Shove it up your cunt.
I'm just so tired there's nothing I want.
And it's like, you're always on my mind,
Never hard to find,
Like I should just break down and cry.
I should have, all that time ago.
Mind is whirling,
Heart is Screaming.
And truthfully, what should I do?
Lie in bed and think.
But I don't want to.
Take advice from me,
Listen to that voice.
I don't want to and its not my choice.
And it's like the music,
My mind,
Isn't loud enough,
Wont slow down enough.
Lie in bed and...
gods but I don't want to.

Shove it in my face
Take it all away

These sweat-stained sheets smile up at me,
remind me of the night before.

I want to be your beauty

Living life through your eyes
its wonderful here with you

Lets have this to ourselves now dear
Special

i have no idea what im writing sorry guys

Ive lost my readers OH NO!

So i've quite obviously lost most of you or youre as inactive as i was, and this makes me sad cause i get no votes when i want to post. Anyway i AM back now and intend to stay back. Also i have plans for the format ive been using for these poems. Im experimenting with it. I have a few (anger, jealousy, happiness) that i have yet to even try writing so give me and idea of how i should start one of those and if theres another you think i should do give me that word and ill try it out. So anyway the poem is below.

Warning: Descriptive and vague, still run-on next format, not too long. Onwards my Loves!

Sex

Cant get enough of your body is
so hot in the room is spinning so much
I want more is coming
outside and inside touch that
spot is killing me slowly lick the
path of sinners opens up and takes
me screaming your name is sex